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Good Girl to God’s Girl – A Keystroke Off

11 Oct
Five years ago, I discovered my life was a keystroke off. 
One little “o.”
I hadn’t noticed at first. Not really. The spell check of life didn’t catch it. Everything made sense. Things appeared in order.
Yet, something was definitely off.
What could it be?
  • Grew up in church
  • Minded the rules
  • Graduated college
  • Got married
  • Stayed in church
  • Had children
  • Worked hard
  • Lived honest
  • Kind to others
  • Paid tithe
  • Good girl
Ahhh….that’s it. One little “o” too many.
It looked okay at first. But that extra keystroke; it changed everything.
Good. God. I’d become Good Girl instead of God’s Girl.
How did it happen?
For the next several weeks, I’ll be sharing my personal experience of too much obedience and not enough relationship. This will include sharing journal entries, scriptures and prayers.
Could you be a keystroke off? Consider these tendencies I found in myself. They’d evolved from an innocent place, but morphed into destructive habits and a false sense of self. 
  • Measurement. Whether it’s a to-do list, a mental check of productivity,  or an inner comparison of self against others, a good girl’s always got to be measuring herself, judging herself.
  • People pleasing. Because performance is everything in a good girl’s life, making people happy is essential. Saying no isn’t even an option. Everyone must be pleased with good girl.
  • Achievement. Since productivity and performance are driving motivations, achievements usually follow the good girl. But, they never bring rest, only pressure to get up and do it all over again.
It’s a vicious cycle. Achievement looks great on the measurement scales. Yet, it resets the bar even higher.
And people? Oh, they always notice achievements, offer compliments. They’re pleased. But, now they expect you to keep it up
See how it all feeds the good girl machine?
There’s certainly nothing wrong with working hard, being kind to others, and having some success in your endeavors. But if those are accompaied by exhaustion, irritability, and frustration (and a fair amount of eye rolling), some editing may be required.
Question:  What warning signs have you learned to recognize in yourself? When do you realize you need to step back and evaluate what’s driving you, motivating you, strengthening you?

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Who is the Mean Ballerina?

16 Sep

I’ve had to answer several questions this week after people received email messages from me signed by “The Mean Ballerina.”

First, I don’t look anything like a ballerina. Second, am I mean? Well, that point might not be as absolute.

Here’s the story.

My husband thought it’d be funny to edit the message my Blackberry tags onto any emails it sends. Rather than reading, “Sent via Blackberry,” he edited the line to read, “The Mean Ballerina.”

I got one foot in the door on Sunday morning when someone said, “Hey, I’ve got a question for you….”

“I know what it is.” The night before I’d remembered using my phone to ‘reply to all’ on a large church email.

“Okay then, tell me.” He raised his coffe cup to his lips.

“Mean Ballerina,right?”

He nods.

“It was my self-coined CB handle at the age of three.”

He laughs and I tell the whole story.

Before the cell phone, my parents used CBs on the road sometimes, particularly when we moved. They had handles, so I chose my own. And “The Mean Ballerina” was born.

It stuck as a sometimes nickname through the years. Even though it has nothing to do my abilities or my disposition (I hope.)

Perhaps my husband’s phone prank is fair payback for calling my older sister, Liz, her family nickname when I went to high school. She spent her senior year with everyone calling her Buffy.

Nicknames are fun and only those who know us very well are usually privy to the funniest names.

Do you recognize God by all of His names? They’re not funny, and they do have something to do with His abilities. The closer you get to Him, the more you experience all He is.

Here’s a list you can study.  Pick one to explore.

ELOHIM: POWERFUL GOD  Genesis 1:1

EL SHADDAI: GOD ALMIGHTY Genesis 17: 1 – 9; 35:9 – 15

EL ELYON: GOD MOST HIGH Genesis 14:17-24

ADONAI: LORD Isaiah 6:1-9

YAHWEH JEHOVAH: EXTERNAL GOD Exodus 3:13 – 15

JEHOVAH JIREH: THE LORD WILL PROVIDE Genesis 22:1 – 14

JEHOVAH ROPHE: THE LORD IS HEALING Exodus 15:22 – 26

JEHOVAH NISSI: THE LORD OUR BANNER  Exodus 17:8 – 16

JEHOVAH M’KADDESH: THE LORD WHO SANCTIFIES YOU  Leviticus 19:1-2; 20:7 – 8

JEHOVAH SHALOM: THE LORD IS PEACE  Judges 6:11-24

JEHOVAH ROHI: THE LORD OUR SHEPHERD Psalm 23

JEHOVAH TSIDKENU: THE LORD OUR RIGHTEOUSNESS Jeremiah 23:5-6

JEHOVAH SABAOTH: THE LORD OF HOSTS 1 Samuel 17:45

JEHOVAH SHAMMAH: THE LORD IS THERE (GLORY) Ezekiel 48:35

 It’s your turn. Give up one of your inside nicknames in the comments and how you got it.

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