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2 Jan

Happy New Year!

Keeping with the tradition of new things for new years, I am unveiling a new website.  As a subscriber to this blog, you are the first to be invited to take a look!

All content has been moved over to the new site. I’m still working on updating some content and making it “pretty,” but will be posting all new messages there.

So….I hope you will visit the site and sign-up again for the email delivery of new posts. I’ll be sticking with the Tuesday and Friday posting schedule.

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Let’s journey on together to surrender our heart to Christ every day.

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A Dream

6 May

Lonely. Feeling lonely, Lord.

I’m spending my time talking to you so much of the days. But not being quiet enough, still enough. More time to listen at your feet, sweet Jesus. More time in your word while the rest of the house is quiet. Before everyone is stirring.

A few nights ago, I woke up crying. My chest hurt from trying to hold back sobs. In my dream, I was either wanting to or actually trying to hug my mama. In my dream, I was trying to stifle my cries so my dad wouldn’t hear me. I remember thinking in my dream, it’s been since December that I got to touch her, her soft smooth skin, and hug her sweet frame.

In reality, it’s been more than a year. Today, it’s been 1 year, 1 month and 1 day since I caressed her hands, kissed her lips and soothed her restlessness as best I could. In reality, when I awoke the other night, the aching in my chest was real, the tears on my face were streaming. I let the sobs out.

Maybe more of my loneliness has to do with this than I reliaze. Maybe I’ve avoided my quiet, still times to avoid those feelings. Maybe I love her more than ever before. And maybe I love you, too, my Lord Jesus, more than I could have if I’d walked this earth with you in physical form. And when I’m with you forever in paradise, I’ll treasure and adore you more than I’d have been able to if there hadn’t been this separation, this longing for you first. And because of your grace, I’ll also treasure that new life alongside my sweet mama, treasure it more than if I’d never tasted this bitter separation.

That’s my dream for the future. You hold it in your hands. Until then, I praise you.

Not Perfect, Just Complete – Is Jane Fonda Right?

4 Jan

Today I heard about 5 minutes of an interview with Jane Fonda on television. (I gave myself permission to have it on only while I folded my laundry, plus I’d finished editing four chapters in my book.)

When asked about a quote she’d given in a magazine regarding her failed marriages (there’ve been three), Jane claimed to have not “grown up” enough to be fully available and present in her marriages. She’s now 73 and said she seriously didn’t feel comfortable with herself until maybe 62. She acted the part that she felt each husband wanted her to act, believing that anything less than perfection made her unloveable. So she masked her real self to present only what she thought people would like. Then, somehow, around 62, she figured out people were never meant to be perfect, just complete.

She didn’t go onto say how she achieved this epiphany or how she suddenly went about feeling complete. I’m certain this is a good thing since she later talked about the bit of plastic surgery she’s had and then clasped her hands and lifted her eyes upward saying, “Please, goddess, don’t let me have any more.”

She is so close to right, yet she’s so far wrong.

Women do have a tendency to believe they should be some version of perfect. If we can’t achieve it in looks, maybe it’s in home organization, academics or business success, motherhood or some other venue. Maybe it’s even not watching trash TV unless your to do list is checked off first and you’re folding clothes at the same time. (smile)

 I’d bet most women could connect to what Jane said. Does that make them more likely to be influenced by what she says on various topics because of that connection? Maybe.

If Christian women hide the things that might make us appear imperfect, how are we to connect with one another? If we’re all too busy hiding our messes, we’ll never meaningfully encourage one another in truth. And what about being contagious to other women around us, if we’re playing Ms. Perfect, fewer people who might need real truth will be interested in hearing from us. 

Jane was half right. We aren’t perfect. We do need to be made complete.  This is only found in Jesus Christ.

In John 15: 9 – 13, Jesus tells us of the heavenly father’s love and how it flows from the father, to Jesus, to us. He tells us to remain in that love and that he has told us these thing so that our joy may be complete. How? By loving as Christ has loved.  Go read the verses. This is how we are loved, able to love, and proves we are loveable. Our God loves us, and he makes us complete.

What have you heard lately that is so close to right, but so far wrong?

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