Good Girl to God’s Girl – A Keystroke Off

11 Oct
Five years ago, I discovered my life was a keystroke off. 
One little “o.”
I hadn’t noticed at first. Not really. The spell check of life didn’t catch it. Everything made sense. Things appeared in order.
Yet, something was definitely off.
What could it be?
  • Grew up in church
  • Minded the rules
  • Graduated college
  • Got married
  • Stayed in church
  • Had children
  • Worked hard
  • Lived honest
  • Kind to others
  • Paid tithe
  • Good girl
Ahhh….that’s it. One little “o” too many.
It looked okay at first. But that extra keystroke; it changed everything.
Good. God. I’d become Good Girl instead of God’s Girl.
How did it happen?
For the next several weeks, I’ll be sharing my personal experience of too much obedience and not enough relationship. This will include sharing journal entries, scriptures and prayers.
Could you be a keystroke off? Consider these tendencies I found in myself. They’d evolved from an innocent place, but morphed into destructive habits and a false sense of self. 
  • Measurement. Whether it’s a to-do list, a mental check of productivity,  or an inner comparison of self against others, a good girl’s always got to be measuring herself, judging herself.
  • People pleasing. Because performance is everything in a good girl’s life, making people happy is essential. Saying no isn’t even an option. Everyone must be pleased with good girl.
  • Achievement. Since productivity and performance are driving motivations, achievements usually follow the good girl. But, they never bring rest, only pressure to get up and do it all over again.
It’s a vicious cycle. Achievement looks great on the measurement scales. Yet, it resets the bar even higher.
And people? Oh, they always notice achievements, offer compliments. They’re pleased. But, now they expect you to keep it up
See how it all feeds the good girl machine?
There’s certainly nothing wrong with working hard, being kind to others, and having some success in your endeavors. But if those are accompaied by exhaustion, irritability, and frustration (and a fair amount of eye rolling), some editing may be required.
Question:  What warning signs have you learned to recognize in yourself? When do you realize you need to step back and evaluate what’s driving you, motivating you, strengthening you?

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2 Responses to “Good Girl to God’s Girl – A Keystroke Off”

  1. Lynn October 11, 2011 at 1:10 pm #

    I love this! Can’t wait for more…

    • Jeanette Edgar October 11, 2011 at 1:58 pm #

      Thanks, Lynn. 🙂

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